T minus one week

One week from today I’ll be rolled in to an operating room where a surgical team will save my life.

Writing that just stopped me in my tracks.

If I hadn’t pursued the bothersome pain in my ear a year ago, if my recurring sinus infections hadn’t annoyed me to the point where I sought treatment from an ENT, if I hadn’t stopped to take the time to take care of myself, if I hadn’t finally had an MRI done, I still may not know why the right side of my inner ear hurts, or why things just don’t quite feel right.

If left untreated, this tumor could cause significant side-effects, including death.  It’s hard to believe that something so slow-growing can do such damage to a person.

Shecklet #3 has been having a particularly difficult time with the idea of Jake and me leaving for two weeks.  I get it.  I don’t want to leave my kids either.  But I remind her (and in doing so, remind myself) that I’m leaving because I need to.  I need to have this stupid brain tumor removed so I have can have the opportunity to be there for my husband and kids in the future.  I know I’ve got a long road ahead of me.  I’ve heard recovery sucks.  But if going through all of this means I get to live, then let’s go.  Norman has overstayed his welcome.  (Actually he was never welcome in the first place!)

I had a change in perspective today.  A while back I wrote about the “lasts” that I would be experiencing between then and my surgery.  Today I realized that while yes, that’s true, after surgery there will be a plethora of “firsts” as well.  And even though I’ll be experiencing sound in a dramatically different way, those are things I to look forward to.

3 Comments

  1. Kathleen Koenig

    Dear Veronica. Thinking about you and praying for you with your upcoming surgery and recovery. You will feel the love and support from people praying for you. I have been there.

    Love, Kathleen Donahue Koenig

  2. Debi Gergen

    Hello there, Sharon and I are in agreement for complete recovery. God did not give us a spirit of FEAR! This is from the god of this world.
    Just know that you are loved by the Father.

  3. Dear V

    Dear Veronica,
    My prayers are with you and your family! Storming the heavens for you all.
    Peace in Jesus,
    Mary Donahue
    COSP parishioner

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